Mason has a past. Having fled his home he now lives out a lonely, isolated existence, doing his best to remain invisible, while watching the world pass him by with an increasingly cynical detachment. At least until a remarkable young woman captivates his attention.
Shayla has a future. With a career, good friends and a fiancé she adores, she loves her life and really wants for nothing. But for some time now something has been watching her, drawn to something about her that makes her unique.
When Mason's world violently collides with Shayla's, his past threatens to destroy her future. To set things right Mason must come to terms with and atone for what he had done while Shayla must find an inner strength she never knew existed within her. And the only thing either of them can rely on is each other.
Publication Date: Aug 29 2011
ISBN/EAN13: 1466265957 / 9781466265950
Page Count: 252
Binding Type: US Trade Paper
Trim Size: 5.25" x 8"
Language: English
Related Categories: Fiction / Fantasy / Contemporary
Chapter 4
He dreamed of Cordelia.
Of Cordelia's end.
Mason always dreamed of Cordelia's death.
Somehow this time the dream had changed. Instead of her being ripped apart and shredding into nothingness, Mason watched as Cordelia was devoured whole by a roesied.
And then it wasn't Cordelia. It was Shayla.
And Shayla was reaching out to him...
Mason woke
screaming. He sat bolt upright, a cold rag that had been on his forehead
dropping into his lap. Quickly regaining his composure he found himself on a
couch, his jacket lain across its back, with an afghan placed over him. The room
around him he did not recognize, though it was probably someone's apartment as
he saw the TV, DVD movie collection, photos in frames on the walls, magazines
on the coffee table next to him, and so on.
Someone had
brought him inside. He had been hurt, now it came back to him. Mason remembered
fighting the roesied, though he wished it had been just a dream.
Movement caught
his attention, bringing him back alert to his surroundings. Rushing in from a
doorway that looked to lead to a kitchen came Shayla, a steaming mug of
something in her hands.
“My god, are you
ok? That scream... maybe I'd better call an ambulance after all...” Shayla had
put down the drink and was reaching for her cell phone that rested on the
coffee table on top of a copy of a travel magazine featuring a picture of the
Parthenon. Mason's hand moved to stop hers, holding it gently but firmly.
“No, I'm sorry,
my apologies... please,” he faltered, looking at his hand holding hers and
feeling a rush of heat on his face. Stoically he gathered himself, moving his
legs off the couch to sit up fully, and letting go slowly of Shayla's hand as
she watched his hand's retreat. “I am better, it was just a bad dream.” He
looked at her face, this being the closest the two of them had ever been, and
he saw it in her eyes. She recognized him, not just from their passing
encounters, though surely she knew she had seen him before.
No, Shayla saw
him. Knew him. Deep inside, who he was... her eyes had seen into the depths of
Mason and he couldn't stop her. He didn't want to stop her.
He had to stop
her.
“You...” she
started to say, unsure of what she was saying, but Mason stood up, grabbing his
coat.
“Thank you for
bringing me in and watching over me. You really shouldn't have, taking a
stranger into your home isn't safe in the city.” Mason couldn't help but scold
her... it had been a dangerous thing she had done, even with her fiancée with
her.
Mason started.
Where was Richard Sommerset?
And then he
forgot about Richard entirely as Shayla took his hand in both of hers, a
distant but penetrating look on her face.
“I know you.”
Mason could
barely shake his head no. “I think you are mistaken, ma'am.”
“Don't,” she
said, her eyelids lowering, nearly closing completely. “Don't lie. You have
watched over me.”
Mason wanted to
pull his hand free, to jump back, to demand what she knew and how she knew it.
He wanted nothing more than to take her hands in his and forget who she was,
what he was, and just be in the moment. In the end, he could do nothing but
look at her.
“I've felt you.
I knew you were there, somewhere inside I always knew. I just... I didn't know
who you were.” One hand came up and fingertips barely touched his cheek so
gently it burned him. “I do now.”
And then, after
a moment or an eternity, her eyes opened wider as if she had come out of a
trance. “I'm sorry, what were you saying?” Slightly confused, she let go of his
hand and moved back a step. “Were you leaving? Are you sure that you are
alright? Richard should be back shortly, he's talking to the police about his
car, and he can give you a ride if you need one.”
That's where the
fiancé was... taking care of his vehicle. Somehow that both angered and amused
Mason. Mason breathed easier... he had collected himself enough, despite
whatever perceptions Shayla had surprised him with, to will his shimmer into
being just enough for her to lose her full awareness of him. Regardless of
Randall's admonishment, Mason was quite good at staying unnoticed and
unremembered when he focused his will upon the task.
“I will be fine.
The car that hit me barely clipped me, honestly, and it was more shock than
anything,” he lied too easily. It shamed him, but he knew it was for her own
good. He could not be part of her life... even in the smallest of ways. This,
too, she must forget.
******
Shayla shook her
head. Looking around her apartment she tried to remember what she had just been
doing. And where was Richard? Her gaze fell on the cold cup of herbal tea on
her coffee table. When had she made that?
Before she
became too lost in her musings the door to her apartment opened and her fiancé
walked in, scratching his head. She thought he looked as puzzled as she felt.
“Strangest
thing... someone or something hit my car, but there were no witnesses.”
Shayla moved
over to him, concerned. “Oh my... how bad is it?”
“Mostly
cosmetic, but the windshield on the passenger side needs to be replaced.
Funny,” he looked at her blankly, then back at the door. “I could have sworn
that there should have been someone in here with you.”
The couple both looked at
the couch, Shayla guessing that, like her, Richard was trying uneasily to shake
the feeling that they were forgetting something important.

Tell us about your current
release.
Unrequited is my first
completed novel as well as my first published piece of writing. I put it up on
Amazon August of 2011, so it's been nearly a year since its release. I'm
currently working on a non-related high fantasy novel, but am still in the very
early planning stages of that despite having, more or less, been working on it
since about January.
The story to Unrequited is about two people who are drawn to
each other that, on so many levels, are not meant to be together. Even more
specifically it is speculation on the question “if you truly love someone would
you really do what's best for them even if it goes against your own self
interest?” When I first came up with that main concept of the book in 1997, I
half-joked to a friend that I was planning on writing the anti-romance novel.
It reached roughly seven thousand words at that time before it was put
aside. I didn't touch it again until about 2010.
Anyway, there's a hidden world behind our own, the world of Irrean.
It's a place of pure will, where those who live there, the Others, can shape
themselves and their home to meet their needs and desires. Others share
experiences and knowledge with each other as they are all connected to each
other and to Irrean itself. Interactions between humans and Others, any travel
by one people to the world of the other, is forbidden.
Mason is an Other, but one who's living an existence of both
self-exile and hiding, from his people and from Irrean, in the human world.
He's been on Earth for a long time, but recently has fallen in love with a
human woman named Shayla. From a distance, that is – he feels he is a curse
upon any who know him, and refuses to contaminate Shayla's life with his
nearness. And, besides, Shayla is happily engaged to a man she adores... and
more than anything Mason wants Shayla to be happy.
Shayla's wedding is near and Mason has planned to move on, stop
watching her, once she is married. But before that date can arrive events
unfold that force him into her life, and their meeting, combined with horrors
they find themselves facing, change both of their lives forever.
I think that's probably more than enough information about the story.
:)
At what point in your life did you
realize you wanted to be a writer?
The simplest answer to that would be to say that a couple teachers in
elementary school redirected my interests, and Marion Zimmer Bradley cemented
it.
In more detail...
In grade school, from kindergarten until about fifth grade, I drew
comic books. At the end there I had a “company”, as in I had collaborated with
five other kids and we were drawing and selling comics to the rest of the kids
in school... and it was that level at which the school itself shut us down as
we were being “disruptive.” One of my favorite teachers actually had taken
aside one of my cohorts and told him he was “wasting his time” on something “so
meaningless.” That got back to me and crushed me. Then, in sixth grade for a
small throw-away assignment in spelling class, I turned in about ten
hand-written pages about a week late for what was supposed to be a one page
story and it really impressed my teacher. Another student told me he overheard
the one teacher talking to another sixth grade teacher about how she would have
accepted that story much later because it was so good.
So, effectively, one teacher's condemnation of drawing comic books
backed by a school's attempt to keep order followed shortly thereafter by
effulgent praise of my non-drawn writing shifted my young focus from drawing to
writing.
A high school writing class had me submit one of my stories to Marion
Zimmer Bradley's magazine... it didn't get published, but I did receive a quite
long and complimentary letter from Mrs. Bradley. It was personalized enough and
encouraging enough that I decided, then and there, that I was probably a decent
writer and maybe I could do it for a living.
How do you react to a bad review
of your book?
Curiosity, mostly. I mean it certainly depends on the quality of the
review, and as I only have the first novel out right now I'm rather short on
the number of reviews to look at. But there have been negative critiques.
First off, you have to take it in stride. On the one hand no book is
going to be loved by everyone who reads it. Not one. So it isn't the end of the
world if some people don't like yours. If it's well-written, you like what your
wrote and believe in it, then there's likely an audience out there for it.
Finding that audience is key. Romance novel fans aren't likely to enjoy graphic
horror stories, and Tom Clancy's audience isn't likely to react positively to
J.R.R. Tolkien's work. You get crossover fans, surely, but my point is that
people like different things and to write well you have to write your book the
right way for the story you are trying to tell – and doing so will by default
eliminate potential readers by simply being the kind of book those readers
aren't likely to enjoy. You can't write a story for absolutely everyone, and
the more you try the weaker and more watered down it'll become.
I've always rebelled at the notion of “writing to an audience” because
often that was used to say you should look at what is popular and fit your work
to the mainstream of the moment... but if you take it to mean that what you are
writing fits a certain genre, even more importantly a specific sub-genre, that
then you need to write the story so that it fits well into that style of story.
It's the style of story you are already telling and you want the people who
enjoy those kinds of stories to enjoy yours, after all.
Of course, even science fiction fans might like Clarke but hate
Asimov, so even a paranormal romance fan who dislikes your paranormal romance
novel doesn't mean it's bad – just that said fan didn't enjoy it.
Secondly, there are jerks. People trolling you. People who are jealous
that you finished something, put something out there for others to criticize,
that they are unable to do but, deep down, they really want to. Their critiques
are usually very easy to spot – they are short, very generic, don't mention
specifics of your story, and tend to use emotionally charged, ad hominem
attacks on the work or you, the author. These it's best to just ignore and move
on.
But back to the curiosity – I want to know what it is they didn't
like. I had one person read my book, Unrequited, who said she couldn't
get into it partly because I had a group of people referred to as “the Others”
(generic, I know – it was meant to be, but yeah... generic) and to this reader
the term was “owned” by George R.R. Martin via his A Song of Ice and Fire
novels. I'd never read them, though I intend to at some point in the future (I
really want to watch the HBO series, mainly, but also because David Gaider of
BioWare said those novels were a big influence on one of my favorite computer role-playing
games of the last decade or so, Dragon Age: Origins.) So I found that
interesting.
I've had a few people tell me the beginning of the novel is much
slower paced and feels really different than the rest... namely the part that
is all of the Amazon preview plus maybe another chapter or so. And I've had a
few readers tell me that the main female protagonist, Shayla, feels too
“perfect” at the beginning as well. No “Gary Stu” mentions yet, which I'm happy
about (I think that gets tossed out WAY too much), and so far other than a
couple very undetailed Good Reads “reviews” my book has gotten very high
praise.
I'd love a lot more critical reviews, however. You can't fix your
mistakes if they aren't pointed out to you... and you grow as a person by learning
from your mistakes, not by basking in praise. More reviews overall would be
great.
I'll take positive ones, too, you know, if people want to give them.
If I came to visit early in the
morning would you impress me as being more like a chirpy bird or a grumpy bear?
Grumpy bear. So very much not a morning person. My wife got me a
t-shirt that reads “Keep out of direct sunlight.” So, yeah.
What would you consider to be the
best book you have ever read?
That's a tough call, but I'm going to bite the bullet and say The
Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy by Douglas Adams. I love that book, and Adams is my favorite author bar none.
What are your favorite TV shows?
Above all else, JMS's Babylon
5 is my absolute favorite TV series. The intricate story-arcs, the well
fleshed-out characters, the focus on story-telling over big set pieces and
action sequences... I cannot think of another show that comes close to the
perfection that this little low-budget syndicated gem reached.
Closest to B5 would be Whedon's Buffy the Vampire Slayer.
I've found in life that people either love or hate Whedon's dialog... me, I
love it. The characters are strongly written, the themes of the episodes and
seasons are strongly compelling, and some of my favorite characters in all of
fiction come out of this series – Xander, Willow,
Angel, Faith...
Following very closely behind BTVS is the Bruce Timm / Paul
Dini animated series Justice League / Justice League Unlimited. I'm a
comic book geek, and am not ashamed of my love of super-heroes. Cartoons
(non-Japanese animated shows, at least) tend to not be a favored source of
entertainment for me, however, since so many cartoons are clearly aimed solely
at children. Timm and Dini did a great job with their TAS shows for
Batman, Superman, etc., but I hadn't really watched them. Justice League, for
whatever reason, hit at the right time to catch my attention. And it's easily
better than most shows on television, period, in my opinion. Great plots,
excellent characters, a serious show that never quite took itself TOO seriously
– there isn't another super-hero series that comes even close to this, not even
the recent crop of excellent Marvel movies.
To round this out I'll drop in an old favorite, a formative series for
me – the Carl Macek “re-imagining” of three separate anime series, Robotech.
This series, more than anything else, generated my interest in Japanese
animation as an art form. But more than that it came at a time in my life where
I was swearing off all animated works as being too childish. Understand that at
the time I saw Robotech the contemporary cartoons on American channels
were the likes of Care Bears, He-Man, G.I. Joe … and worse. Even an eight year
old can notice and grow cynical about reused animation cells and sequences, not
to mention people fighting with machine guns, missiles and even swords but
no-one ever getting hurt. Robotech depicted a war in stark terms, and,
while soap opera-y and science fiction, it was far more realistic than many
live-action shows on prime time. People died. Relationships fell apart.
Two-thirds of the way through the first third of the series the entire Earth is
all but destroyed. To say I had never seen anything like that before would be
an understatement. I understand there are anime purists who hate Macek and only
will watch the original Macross, and that's fine... and I am painfully aware of
how bad, at times, the dialog and story-telling can be in the series. But the
overall experience is something that reaches a B5 level meaning to me.
What are you passionate about
these days?
New media, methods of distribution, niche markets and creator – fan
connections.
I've long been a fan of the internet and the world wide web,
specifically how it allows people of similar, non-mainstream interests to get
together and share what they love as well as how creators can have more control
over their creations by targeting directly at niches that big publishers or
investors would never think profitable enough to pursue. Web sites and forums
were the start, followed by blogs and social media and the like – but now we
are getting even more into it with sites like Amazon allowing authors to
self-publish and sell with no real middle-man, and especially things like
Kickstarter which allows creative people to raise money from their audience
instead of from bean counters or other big money people looking at
profitability and not final product. Add to this the rise of interest in open source and Creative Commons,
that rise being intricately tied to the internet I might add. Open source is
based on the thought that if you allow more people access to the source code of
programs then the programs can only get better, stronger, more robust as many,
many minds work at fixing bugs and improving performance. And since open source
let's ANYONE work with the code, everyone can profit from the efforts and works
of everyone else. Creative commons, on the other hand, is sorta the
anti-copyright... especially the kind of copyright espoused by corporations
like Disney. People who create works and put it under Creative Commons are, in
varying degrees decided by the creator(s), allowing others access to their work
– free distribution sometimes, other times allowing people to alter or include
the work in their own efforts with no financial gain, and some may even let
others produce derivative works for profit as long as attribution is given. I
firmly believe that a creative mind should stand on his or her work, not on
popularity of one idea or by preventing others from also using his or her idea.
If you make a good product and let people sample it, many will still
pay you afterward. Sometimes just because they appreciate what you made, and
even more often because they want to support you in making more. I feel THIS is
the model that truly creative works grow from... not the established model of
publishers, focus groups, marketing and investors getting majority control.
Do you have a Website or Blog?
My author blog is jaymerin.com. There isn't much there yet as I
tend to keep it only about my writing, but as I continue to work on my next
novel more posts will appear there on a somewhat regular basis.
I do also run a genre entertainment website called In Genre at ingenre.com.
Jay Merin has had a life-long love affair with fiction. He
loves when a story can take him somewhere, make him feel, and he especially
loves those moments when reading a book or watching a movie where something so
amazing, so well-crafted, so moving happens that he has to stop and just bask
in how great experiencing that moment was.
Jay wants to share that moment, to give that moment to others. He wants his
stories to hook readers, draw them into fascinating worlds and make them never
want to leave. In the end, if Jay can give one person out there one of those
moments with his work he will consider himself a success. The more people who
experience those moments the better, of course.
For a very long time he has written various different kinds of stories for a
myriad of mediums, from comic books to movie scripts. But
Unrequited
is the first novel length work he has finished. It is a labor of love and he
dedicates it to his family who supported him so much in making sure that it got
finished.